Tuesday, 10 March 2009
i need you like water in my lungs
i just love the way you're running out of life.
You worry that if you lower your guard,
even for one second, your whole world
will disintegrate into chaos.
You can have all the faith you want in spirits, the afterlife and heaven and hell... but when it comes to this world, don't be an idiot. Cause you can tell me you put your faith in God to get you through the day, but when it comes time to cross the street, I know you look both ways.
Give me my Romeo; and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine.
I never thought I'd die alone.
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known.
Only thing I truly knew- knew it in the pit of
my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew
it from the crown of my head to the soles of
my feet,knew it deep in my chest- was how
love gave someone the power to break you.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved.
Grief is like the ocean; It comes
on waves ebbing and flowing. Sometimes
the water is calm, & sometimes it is
overwhelming. All we can do is learn to swim.
Who knows how long I've loved you,
you know I love you still.
Will I wait a lonely lifetime?
If you want me to, I will.
At least I'm not a liar.
At least I’m not a cheat.
At least I don’t care what these goddamn mindless people think of me.
This is gonna break me,
c l e a n in two.
This is gonna bring me,
c l o s e to you.
This is gonna bring me,
c l a r i t y.
This will take the heart,
right o u t of me.
This is gonna bring me,
to my k n e e s.
I just wanna h o l d you,
close to me.
It’s all up in the air,
and we stand still,
to see what comes d o w n .
then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out.
wish i knew.
I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.
When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell.
she'll break into bits of star and throw herself against the sky
Slow down, you're doing fine.
You can't be everything you want
to be, before your time.
I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared that I will never be happy,
and that I was actually never happy to begin with.
I was there for you through the tough times,
when you actually needed a friend.
Maybe it doesn't mean anything to you anymore;
it probably never did. But it meant a lot to me,
you meant a lot to me and, surprisingly enough,
you still do.
he said I don't know if I've ever been good enough.
I'm a little bit rusty
and I think my head is caving in.
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
by a hand that's touched me,
And i feel like something's gonna give
and I'm a little bit angry...
every couple of nights or so, you pop into my dreams.
i just can't get rid of you, like you got rid of me.
The trouble with a city is that if you leave,
it doesn't miss you. You're totally dispensable.
It doesn't even notice you're gone.
Letting go doesn't mean giving up...it means moving on. It's one of the hardest things a person can do. Starting at birth, we grasp onto anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go. We feel that letting go is giving up, quitting, and that as well all know is cowardly. But as we grow older we are forced to change our way of thinking. We are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. It means maturing and moving on, no matter how hard you have to fight yourself to do so.
Things aren't the way they were before.
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore.
Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up
Fuck .. I guess all I can do is wait. I'm no longer
as brave, I can't somehow take matters into my own
hands. I never really agreed with that saying
"Why not go for it? You have nothing to lose". You
have everything to lose, sometimes even yourself.
I wish I could somehow reach out to you, I don't
want it to be too late. I DON'T WANT TO HATE
MYSELF EVEN MORE, and I know time is running out.
He knew he made a mistake.
You could see it in his face everytime
she walked into the room.
He wished he hadn't done that to her
she glued her lips together,
so she never had to speak.
And sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere,
all of a sudden this overwhelming saddness
rushes over me. And I get discouraged and I
get upset and I feel hopeless, sad, and hurt.
And once again I become numb to the world.
So I said good-bye to all my friends,
And packed my hopes into a matchbox
Cuz I know it's time to fly.
I owe you nothing. And you are
nothing to me. Thank you for curing
me of my ridiculous obsession with love.
Like all of a sudden I didn't fit in anywhere.
Not at school, not at home. And everytime
I turned around, another person I'd known
forever felt like a stranger to me.
Even I felt like a stranger to me.
She drives away she's feeling worthless.
Used again, but nothing's different.
She'd stay the night but knows he doesn't care.
My place is of the sun and
This place is of the dark and
I do not feel the romance,
I do not catch the spark.
Hate, if you want to hate
if it keeps you safe,
if it makes you brave.
I can only wonder how touching you
would make me feel
but if I take that chance right now
tomorrow will you want me still.
You said I was naive. And I thought that I was strong.
I thought, hey I can leave, I can leave.
But now I know that I was wrong.
'Cause I miss you.
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage.
If there's a way that you could be everything you want to be,
Would you complain that it came too easy?
The best thing you've ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously,
it's only life after all.
Well darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
And lightness has a call that's hard to hear
I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it,
I'm crawling on your shore
She swore that she would be all mine
And love me till the end.
When I whispered in her ear
I lost another friend.
Monday, 29 September 2008
the fight for you is all i've ever known.
Before, my fear was being vulnerable. The ability of another human being to possibly tear apart your insides at any moment was enough to keep me running. He, however, made my insides come alive, my smile become permanent, laughter more frequent. He took away my fear and gave me hope. But more importantly, for the first time in my life, instead of wanting to run, he gave me a reason to stay.
obstacles are put in our way to see if we really want something,
or if we just thought we did.
We are the people meant to be together.
No matter what happens or where
our lives end up taking us.
We will be happy baby, because
they say that home is where the heart is.
And if that's true, then I know
I'll be right at home, where ever I
am as long as I'm with you.
I love this spot. It’s like heaven. Right here on Earth. Maybe that’s what heaven is.Maybe we go through life collecting people and places we love, and theybecome our heaven.
Everyone has got their scars.
No matter what they tell you, you're beautiful.
You're beautiful just the way you are.
stop falling in love
that lets you down.
and you never,
ever let me in.
I know it seems hard sometimes, but remember one thing: through every dark night, there's a bright day after that. So no matter how hard it gets, stick you chest out, keep your head up and handle it.
You can't stay in your corner of the forest waiting for people to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes.
Until you face all the mistakes you've made, you'll never change.
i swear you marched in like big gusts of wind cutting through our clothes. such an easy attempt to convince us there is no reason we should be outside. when you speak, it's like fire. the sparks leap from your mouth and all your talk of such burdens. no, it won't bring me and all my friends down. well, i swear that you spilled into my room last night. covering me in sheets so tight that i didn't move. i just laid around until the early afternoon.
No girl should ever forget that she doesn't need anybody who doesn't need her.
No matter what, once in your life, someone will hurt you. That someone will take all that you are and rip it into pieces and they won't even watch where the pieces land. But through the breakdown, you'll learn something about yourself. You'll learn that you're strong, and no matter how hard they destroy you, that you can conquer anyone.
I gave you my heart, and that's all I can give you. And if that's not enough for you, then I'm not enough for you.
all she's ever really wanted is someone who will sit
with her under the stars and not want anything more
than to look in her eyes and say, "you're the one i've
been waiting for."
Every song has a coda, a final movement, whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends. Is that any reason not to enjoy the music?
You make me happier than I ever thought I could be. And if you let me, I'll spend the rest of my life trying to make you feel the same way.
i remember everything. the words we spoke, on freezing south street.
and on the mornings watching you get ready for school. you combed
your hair inside that mirror, the one you painted blue and glued with
jewelry tears. something bout the bright colors would always make you
feel better. but now we speak with ruined tongues, and the words we
say arent meant for anyone. its just a mumbled sentence to a passing
acquaintence, but there was once you. you said you hate my suffering,
that you understood, and youd take care of me. youd always be there.
well where are you now?
One day, you'll wake up and realize that she really is the best thing you'll ever have, and she'll be waking up next to the one who already knew.
My mouth, it wasn't always empty. My hands, they weren't
always tied. Your pose, it was an awkward curtsy. My shirt,
has never felt so tight. Is this what it is? It's all a matter of time.
This is what it is, there is a difference, what you have and what
you leave behind. What you don't lose, what you don't say,
what you can't fake, it's all a matter of time. What you don't use,
what you don't say, these are cowards words, and these words
are mine. My teeth, they weren't always crooked. My eyes,
they didn't always lie. Your voice, it spoke to me like thunder.
My clothes, they never fit right. This is what it is, it's all a matter
of time. Is this what it is? There is a difference,
what you have and what you leave behind.
Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.
questions cloud my head with why
tears on my pillow as i cry
makes no sense for us to say goodbye.
Don't wonder why people go crazy. Wonder why they don't.
In face of what we can lose in a day, in an instant, wonder
what the hell it is that makes us h o l d it together.
so here's a piece of advice:
let go when you're hurting too much.
give up when love isn't enough,
and move on when things are not like before.
for surely there is someone out there
who will love you even more.
So close your eyes to make this real. We've got twenty heartbeats left to feel every little touch before tomorrow comes, but please don't stall to make this last. Just hold on tight and let it pass. We're already falling fast enough to shatter when we reach the ground.
I'm always happy when someone
wins a battle because around here,
you get your fair share of disappointment.
I guess in the end you have to fight
for things that really matter, like
pride in your work, or friendship.
And sometimes all you can do is
grit your teeth and tell the truth.
anticipation has the habit to set you up for disappointment.
you're throwing everything you have at me
will you ever let it go?
you're so pathetic,
give it a rest.
you're not gonna win
you're never gonna.
i see alone we stand, together we fall apart.
You know what's the most terrifying
thing about admitting that you're in love?
You're just naked. You put yourself in harm's way
and you lay down all your defenses. No clothes,
no weapons. Nowhere to hide, completely
vulnerable. The only thing that makes it tolerable
is to believe the other person loves you back
and you can trust him not to hurt you.
To be brave is to love someone unconditionally,
without expecting anything in return. To just give.
That takes courage, because we dont to fall on our
faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.
You're cold, but you're beautiful.
You're a mess, but I like it that way.
If you're always looking for reasons
not to be with someone, then you
find them. But at some point you
just have to let go, and give your
heart what it deserves.
i won't miss you like you think that i will,
but you'd be glad to know that i'm not doing so well.
don't waste your words saying things that we both know aren't true.
but i hope you think of me sometimes like i think about you.
i wonder if you're happy now, manipulating someone new.
Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you. I'd been broken beyond repair
He's the reason I'm messed up, the reason
I can't get myself into another relationship.
No matter how hard I try, no matter how
bad I want to... I'm scared. I'm not scared
of getting hurt, I'm scared of hurting someone
else. Because I could never care for anyone
the way I cared about him.
Monday, 18 August 2008
my one hope was that i'd survive you.
i've given you my best,
so why does she get the best of you?
Between the woods the afternoon
Its fallen in a golden swoon,
The sun looks down from quiet skies
To where a quiet water lies,
And silent trees stoop down to the trees.
And there I saw a white swan make
Another white swan in the lake;
And, breast to breast, both motionless,
They waited for the wind's caress. . .
And all the water was at ease.
i took a shot,
i didn't even come close.
And in the end,
it's not the years in your life that count.
It's the life in your years.
Hug them, kiss them and tell them that you love them.
don't miss the chances that life is given you to spend with people you love.
there are no rewinds.
Any man who can drive safely while kissing a
pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss
the attention it deserves.
It's always scary for people to fall in love, but it's a healthy fear. I think that nothing is healthier. People are fragile. People can be hurt. Sometimes it's good to take steps toward letting yourself into something, but it's not healthy to just throw your emotions around and be avaible to everyone- because people can walk all over you.
I'm so against it. People should strive to be happy with
who they are and not be obsessed with how they look.
Beauty is nothing.
Yet I cling to them because I still believe,
in spite of everything, people are truly good at heart.
I believe in pink, I believe laughing is the
best calorie burner. I believe in kissing,
kissing alot. I believe in being strong when
everything seems to be going wrong. I believe
that happy girl's are the prettiest girls.
I believe that tomorrow is another day,
& i believe in miracles.
I define nothing. not beauty, not patriotism.
I take each thing as it is,
without prior rules about what it should be.
Behind every beautiful thing there is some kind of pain.
Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you;
you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
The unreal is more powerful than
the real, because nothing is as
perfect as you can imagine it,
because its only intangible ideas,
concepts, beliefs, fantasies that
last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots.
People, well, they die. But things
as fragile as a thought, a dream,
a legend, they can go on and on.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and
the stars; you have a right to be here.
Summertime, I think, is a collective unconscious. We all remember the notes that made up the song of the icecream man; we all know what it feels like to brand our thighs on a playground seat that's heated up like a knife in a fire; we all have laid on our backs with our eyes closed and our hearts beating across the surface of our lids, hoping that this day will stretch just a little longer than the last one, when in fact it's all going in the other direction.
If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense.
Nothing would be what it is because everything would be what it isn't,
and contrariwise, what it is. It wouldn't be and what it wouldn't be,
it would, you see?
A dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast
asleep. In dreams you will lose your heartaches.
Whatever you wish for, you keep. Have faith in your dreams,
and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through.
No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing,
the dreams that you wish will come true.
Please don't go away. No ones ever stuck around with me for so long,
and if you leave I just... I remember things better with you. It's there,
I know it is cause when I look at you I can feel it. I look at you and
I'm home. Please. I don't want that to go away. I don't want to forget.
Bottom line is that the couples that are truly right for each other
wade through the same crap as everyone else. But the big
difference is they don't let it take them down. One of those two
people will stand up and fight for that relationship everytime.
If it's right, and if they're real lucky, one of them will say something.
How can I put this so that you'll believe me?
You're not asleep, you're not dead.
I'm here and I love you. I have always loved you,
and I will always love you. I was thinking of you,
seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away.
When I told you that I didn't want you, it was the
very blackest kind of blasphemy.
It's the possibility that keeps us going. Not the guarantee.
I think that's what I find most strange about this world- nobody ever says how they feel. They hurt, but they don't cry out. They're happy, but they don't dance or jump around. And they're angry but they hardly ever scream. Because they feel ashamed. Nothing's worse than that. So we all walk around with our heads looking down and never look up to see how beautiful the sky is.
When you look in her eyes and she's looking back in yours... everything... feels... not quite normal. Because you feel stronger and weaker at the same time. You feel excited and at the same time, terrified. The truth is... you don't know what you feel except you what kind of man you want to be. It's as if you've reached the unreachable and you weren't ready for it.
You turned out to be exactly who I thought you were. I never pretended to be somebody else. It's been me all along. And it was me who was hurt in front of everybody. Look, I didn't come here to yell at you, okay? I know what it feels like to be afraid to show who you are. I was. But not anymore. And the thing is, I don't care what people think about me... because I believe in myself. And I know that things are going to be okay. But even though I have no family, and no job, and no money for college...it's you that I feel sorry for. I know that guy that sent those emails is somewhere inside of you, but, I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.
you keep telling me baby,
there will come a time,
when you will leave her arms,
and forever be in mine.
but i don't think that's the truth.
and i don't like being used.
and i'm tired of waiting.
All the stars up in the sky
And the leaves in the trees
All the broken bits that make you jump up
And grassy bits in between
All the matter in the world is how much I like you.
would you believe me if i said
i didn't need you?
cos i wouldn't believe you
if you said the same to me.
I don’t know where we’re going, but I know we’ve
gone too far and I hope it isn’t showing, but I think
I love you and I can’t believe you’re leaving just
when I let you in and when you had me believing I
could feel again.
I’ve shown up for you
in ways that girl never would
but I know you’ll go back to her and
maybe you should, but
I hope you don’t go backwards
cuz I’m going on ahead and
one day you’ll wish that you had
stuck with me instead.
Tell me the truth cause I'm so confused spinning around
These walls are falling down, and I need you more than you know.
I'm not letting go I'm getting close, so take my hand.
And please just tell me why you're pushing me away.
Get rid of the ocean if you ever wanna see me again.
Our shores are separated with or without a boat.
And you know that nothing lasts forever, and
depending on the weather, I'm a changer.
And I know if November had been deader.
If we'd hidden a bit better, we'd be strangers.
if you're gonna fall
i'll let you know
that i'll pick you up
like you for i.
why don't you stay,
i'm down on my knees.
i'm so tired of being lonely,
don't i give you what you need?
and i'm sorry.
when i'm gone, you'll be going
n o w h e r e f a s t.
There is a problem here with our society
The absence of my tears is my sobriety
I have a growing fear and you're not helping me
Am I the only one who realizes it's true?
Sometimes someone comes into your life that changes everything.
Raises your standards and makes you laugh more than ever.
There's just something about them, that you can't put into words.
And even though your not even with them, you still don't want to let them go.
Tell me why everything around you lost it's shine, why nothing glows.
i miss you more,
than you could ever know.
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
You wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you...
I just wanna live
I wish I could breathe
Everyone says love hurts,
but that is not true. Loneliness hurts.
Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts.
Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things
confused with love, but in reality love is
the only thing in this world that covers up
all pain and makes someone feel wonderful
again. Love is the only thing in this world
that does not hurt.
Tonight I watch the lights go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you could still get to sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
And I can't hide that I relied on you.
Take a breath, let it out slow,
Seasons change with the break of a lifetime,
Remind me again why we thought twice about it,
We've got ambition like you've got restraint
And I learned what is obvious to a child. That life is simply a collection of little lives, each lived one day at a time. That each day should be spent finding beauty in flowers and poetry and talking to animals. That a day spent with dreaming and sunsets and refreshing breezes cannot be bettered. But most of all, I learned that life is about sitting on benches next to ancient creeks with my hand on her knee and sometimes, on good days, for falling in love.
Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you.
I'd been broken beyond repair.
You say you wanted more.
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you.
Thursday, 07 August 2008
"never forget how beautiful you are. you hold ideals, morals, and respect. you are unlike any other girl out there. don't forget to smile, because it lights up the room. don't ever lose yourself. guard your heart, you're too special to give it away to just anyone. don't you ever forget that you deserve the very best, don't settle for less, ever. and don't you dare change, not for me, not for any other guy, not for anyone. because you are more than amazing just the way you are."
knowing is better than wondering
waking is better than sleeping
and even the biggest failure
beats the hell out of never trying.
suddenly people who you think are
always going to be there, they disappear
you know? people die and they move
away and they grow up. everything
the more i think about you,
and the day you left,
the more i realize i will never be the same.
thousand miles seems pretty far
but they've got planes and trains and cars
i'd walk to you if i had no other way.
don't hold yourself like that,
you'll hurt your knees.
i kissed your mouth and back,
that's all i need.
you'll give me miles and miles of mountain,
and i'll ask for the sea.
because the truth is,
you've gotta believe in something,
you've gotta crawl before you can walk,
you've gotta walk before you can run,
you've gotta run before you can jump,
you've gotta jump before you can fly,
and one day, we're gonna fly.
i am tempermental,
like a heart without a home.
i am sentimental,
but you don't me at all.
i have expectations,
i wanna be the one you call.
i want a conversation,
but you don't know me at all.
When someone you love disappears, its like the light goes dim, and you’re in the shadows. You try to do what people tell you: put one foot in front of the other; keep looking up; give yourself over to the seconds and minutes and hours. But always there's a glimmer of light - that way of living you once knew - sort of faded and smoky like the crescent moon on a winter's night when the air is full of ice and clouds, but still there, hanging just over your head. You think it's not far. You think at any moment you can reach out and grab it.
What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldn't say
It's funny how one summer can change everything.
it must be something about the heat
and the smell of chlorine, fresh-cut grass and honeysuckle,
asphalt sizzling after late-day thunderstorms,
the steam rising while everything drips around it.
something about long, lazy days and whirring air conditioners
and bright plastic flip-flops from the drugstore
thwacking down the street.
something about fall being so close; another year,
another christmas, another beginning. so much in one summer,
stirring up like the storms that crest at
the end of each day, blowing out all the heat
and dirt to leave everything gasping and cool.
everyone can reach back to one summer and lay a finger to it,
finding the exact point when everything changes.
that summer was mine.
I believe that everything happens for a reason.
People change so that you can
learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you
appreaciate them when they're right,
you believe lies so you
eventually learn to trust no one
& sometimes good things fall apart
so better things can fall together.
I'll never let this go
but I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you
you know that you're worthless,
and i am better than the games you play.
but he told me,
that for years,
he's just been dying,
to save me.
but we try so hard not to die,
we forget to appreciate life.
something i've done,
that i can't outrun.
maybe you should wait.
maybe you should fall.
something you've said,
that can't be undone.
Just because somebody flirts with you
Doesn't mean they like you.
Just because somebody likes you
Doesn't mean they want to go out with you.
Just because somebody goes out with you
Doesn't mean they love you.
Just because somebody loves you
Doesn't mean they won't hurt you.
Because people lie & things change.
Boyfriends cheat, best friends leave,
& there will always be those people
That would kill to see you fall.
I'm weird with relationships. I think I know what I want, then I run. I think I run 'cause I'm scared. I'm scared I might get hurt. Or maybe, I just haven't found someone that's worth being hurt for.
I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person. Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of. Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.
why should i believe anything you say?
and how could you shame me that way?
where'd you get the nerve,
to even think that you could play.
i am thinking it's a sign,
that the freckles in our eyes,
are mirror images,
and when we kiss,
they're perfectly aligned.
true, it may seem like a stretch,
but it's thoughts like this that catch,
my troubled head,
when you're away,
when i am missing you to death.
every now and then, you wake up to a day that affects your whole life, the day in your life when you know you'll never be the same, the that changes the way you think about everything and everyone.
I just want to thank you, thank you, from the bottom of my heart
for all those sleepless nights, and for tearing me apart.
Barefoot or first thing in the morning, I feel beautiful. I didn't always feel that way, but I feel that way now. When somebody just loves you, and when you make somebody else happy, when your presence seems to make them happy, you suddenly feel like the most beautiful person in the world.
want to know exactly what makes you tick, I want to know your problems. I want to know what days you`re waking up on the wrong side of the bed, I want to know how many pillows you sleep with. I want to know why you sleep with a window open. I want to know if I`m ever needed, if I`m good enough to keep you warm at night time. I want to know if I even have a chance anymore. I want to know everything about you, whether it be fact or fiction. I want to know your past, your future, your inbetweens. Your favorite colors, your phobias ; everything.
You had me. You had me four months ago & you left. it has nothing to do with me, it`s about you & it`s always about you. What you need & what you want, you know... it seems like that you only want me when you can't have me. You like the chase & that's all. So you know what? You can have it.
i may have failed,
but i promise,
i have loved you from the start.
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make
mistakes and can be out of control. At times, I'm
hard to handle but if you can't handle me at
my worst, then you sure as hell don't
deserve me at my best.
I've tried so hard to show my dear that you're my every dream.
Yet you're afraid each thing I do is just some evil scheme.
A memory from your lonesome past keeps us so far apart,
Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart?
I'm throwing away pictures
that i never should have taken in the first place
& it's cold in my apartment as i'm changing all the colors
from the brightest reds to grays.
Unsinkable ships, sink.
Unbreakable walls, break.
Sometimes the things you think that never happen,
Happen just like that.
Unbendable steel, bends.
Like the fury of the wind is unstoppable..
I've learned to never underestimate the impossible.
You closed your eyes. That was the difference.
Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel.
And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too---even when you are in the dark. Even when you're falling.
Dreams are always crushing
When they don't come true.
But it's the simple dreams that
Are often the most painful because
They seem so personal, so reasonable,
So attainable. You're always close enough
To touch but never quite close enough to hold,
& it's enough to break your heart.
I decided very early on just to accept life unconditonally;
I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I
seemed to accomplish far more than I have ever hoped.
Most of the time, it just happened to me without my
ever seeking it.
I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up does rejoice. Still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. I guess I just miss my friend.
I feel like i'm on that one ride at the fairs. The ones that you sit in and they spin you. & the lazy people, the laidback people, they can sit there and take the spinning lightly, let the ride do the work. But then theres people like me, that choose to take hold of the wheel in the middle, and spin it harder and harder, faster & faster. They keep going until they're green in the face and so dizzy & exhausted they can't stand. I keep spinning this damn ride, making it harder on myself than I should, But I don't know how to stop. I wish I could just sit back & "go with the flow." But I can't, I just dont know how. I cannot wait til someone or something just grabs me, just grips me up and makes all of it come to a hault. I can just imagine how great that will be. The whole world will still be spinning, but i'll know that I'm standing still, I'll know the ride is over, I'll know I'm alright.
The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment when you are between asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality and it really happened.
I still panic sometimes, forget to breathe,
but I know now that I have something
perfect in all my imperfections, a beauty
that he held up for me to see, a strength
that can never be taken away.
So here we lie in this beautiful mess
of tangled sheets and beads of sweat.
With my heart in your hand and my neck in the other,
should I be scared or should I come closer?
But it's still beating and I'm still breathing.
You haven't hurt me yet.
I have this theory that the more important and intimate the emotion, the fewer the words are required to express it. For instance, in dating, 'Will you go out with me?' Six words. 'I think I care for you.' Five words. 'You matter to me.' Four words. 'I love you.' Three words. 'Marry me.' Two words. So what's left? What's the most important and intimate word you can ever say to somebody? It's 'Goodbye.
all of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right.
I'm tripping inwards, you got my head spinning.
I don't know where to go from here cause it's you and me and
all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to prove.
Maybe sometimes it's a good thing to stumble, because there's a better way to stand. Maybe we need to cry sometimes, because laughter cannot hide the worst. And maybe that's why we get hurt, for us to pass on the lesson and teach someone else.
i'm falling into memories of you,
and things we used to do.
follow me there,
that beautiful somewhere,
a place that i can share,
i don't understand why God would
ever let us meet if he knew there
was no possible chance we could ever be together.
I`m learning to let go; to forgive; to forget grudges.
to trust; to hope; & to believe the impossible. take a
change; attempt a risk ; speak your mind. never take
life for granted ;; tomorrow may never come. make the
most of what you have; & fight for your dreams.
I`m learning now to live. to love. & to be loved.
oh i don't believe it,
that i could be so deceiving,
and bringing you down,
to feel this lack of loyalty.
you're impossible to find.
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else but you.
whenever something happens that is not part
of your plan, you pretend like it doesn't exist.
you act like you're in this movie about your
perfect life, but i have to remind you that
the only one watching it is you.
you didn't love her,
you just didn't want to be left alone,
maybe she was good for your ego.
and then maybe she made you feel better.
but you couldn't have loved her.
we not destroy the things that we love.
Never lie, steal, cheat or drink.
But if you must lie, lie in the arms of
the one you love. If you must steal, steal
away from bad company.
If you must cheat, cheat death.
And if you must drink, drink in the moments
that take your breath away.
sometimes i wonder what i'd say to you
if you suddenly walked back into my life again.
i wonder what i'd say to you after all this time.
after you broke my heart & left.
but most of all, i wonder what you would say to me.
you could be happy and i won't know.
you weren't happy the day i watched you go.
and all the things i wish i hadn't said,
are played on lips til it's madness in my head.
is it too late to remind you how we were?
you took your hand from the sky,
said you were tired of doing someone else's job.
then the moon fell and shattered on the ground.
i said "i'm sorry for the last six months,
it's not your fault you're stronger than the sky."
say you adore me.
what good could you be for me?
and after i'm gone, wondering where you went wrong
cause you're only taking inches when i'm giving you miles.
did you figure that i wasn't worth your while?
Its funny how you can even take
some ones voice for granted,
and in the end, that voice.
it just echoes memories.
straight back to you.
You spend half the time dreaming and the other half's a lie.
You don't know where you're going and you don't know how to try.
You don't really have a best friend but you know that you're in love.
Now all you can remember are the words he used the most.
you say you're looking for happiness
but when it comes, you run away from it
you tell yourself you don't deserve it
there's not much more that
i can do now, the rest is up to you
until you love yourself, you'll never change
you'll keep on running
until you deal with today.
See when you're mad, you don't miss people.
So if you stay mad,
it's like you never knew them at all.
That way you don't feel sucky about them
you are young and i was scared.
you're wise beyond your years,
but i don't care.
and i can feel your heartbeat
you know exactly where to take me.
She's just like him
Spoiled rotten, confused by the lies shes been fed
And she's searching for no one but herself
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy that she is here
And this time I think you'll know
In the end, the love you take is
equal to the love you make.
stay up too late,
and i'm too thin.
we promised each other
it was too the end.
i'm not sure why it took so long,
for me to realize,
it wasn't me,
he just wasn't what i needed.
because boys are easy to find,
but i'm still looking for a man.
forgive me, but i can't be everything you deserve.
and i know it's too late to crawl back to you tonight,
but there's a few things that i just need you to know.
like the way i felt when we were close,
and how the stars explode every time you are near.
i gave up coffee & cigarettes
i hate to say it hasn't helped me yet,
i thought my problems would just disappear,
and all my pain would be in yesterday.
I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
and watch my bad habits get flushed away.
I thought that would keep my head on straight.
and all my pain would be in yesterday,
but its true.i'm still blue.
but i finally know what to do.
i must quit, i must quit you.
I think sometimes we
Love people so much
That we have to be numb to it
Because if we felt how much
We really loved them,
It would kill us.
i'm not this girl,
i'm not the girl who gets attached.
i dont like feelings, they're messy...and they hurt.
and i dont like being hurt, i've been hurt way to many times..
so why did i let him get close enough to see that?
why did i let him get to me, when i know that everyone always leaves?
I've learned that I'm a taker and I need to be a giver
and I promise you a whole lot more than I deliver.
And I've learned that forgiveness is a simple gift of grace
and I know I don't deserve it, but I see it in your face.
I know a lot about living but I've got so much to learn about love.
we're all growing up so fast,
i'm afraid none of it will last.
I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
i never promised you a ray of light
i never promised there'd be sunshine everyday
i'll give you everything i have
the good, the bad.
why do you put me on a pedestal?
im so up high that i cant see the ground below
so help me down, you've got it wrong
i dont belong there
you know you're better than that,
so put the past behind you. you just
gave so much to someone who never
really deserved it.
It is amazing, really, just how much pain the human heart can take.
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
If you're always looking for reasons not to be with someone, then you find them. But at some point you just have to let go, and give your heart what it deserves.
if i woke up alone i won't stop till i'll find you and you are with me
cause by now, i know you better than you know yourself
and i know what you really need
what you need, or i need
but either way this is where you should be
here with me
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
It only hurts at first.
But then you will find someone to give you everything you want.
Try not to go running back to him.
So it goes unsaid that we've been here before.
Lonely nights and endless fights and sleeping on the floor.
And he's sorry, so the story goes.
It's read and replayed and ends the same way
I take a breath and pull the air in 'til there's nothing left
I'm feeling green like teenage lovers between the sheets
Knuckles clenched to white as the landing gear retract for flight
My head's a balloon inflating with the altitude
Tell you where you need to go
Tell you who you need to be
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you when you’ll need to leave
i just want back in your head,
i'm not unfaithful, but i'll stray,
when i get a little scared.
But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you’ve heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words